My Ongoing Battle

I just want to be saved
Everything is starting to get to me
Every little thing irritates me
My journey has barely begun
And it's proving to be more difficult
By the day
I'm relapsing
I'm going downhill
I don't want anything to do with anyone
I just wan to curl up in a ball
In the dark
And just stay there
I never feel like eating
Or even moving
Even showering is an effort
This battle I'm fighting is hard
And I can't do this on my own
Everything seems to be becoming
More mediocre by the day
The people around me
Are really starting to notice
This lie that i've been living
I'm really not that strong