This Heavy Love of Mine

I'm heavy on your shoulders
I'm a weight in your arms
I'm a concrete foundation
I'm an iron charm

I've been battered and bruised
And haunted by my past
The memories, they're taunting me
Oh trust me, they're vast

I can't begin to tell you
But trust me, I've tried
I had the words ready
But yet again, I lied

I promised you honesty
To never lie to you
But really, what's wrong?
I haven't got a clue

I'm a mass of confusion
I'm a muddled mess
But believe me when I say
That I can't love you any less

These emotions are suffocating
All bottled up inside
And let me tell you now
You're in for a bumpy ride

This roller-coaster inside
Is starting to rust and break
It's leaving a hole in me
And oh, how it aches

And when I say I love you
Yes, trust me, I do mean it
But it's never been a blessing
Dooming all those who hear it